1 |
Crippled Black Phoenix |
"Cry of Love" |
single |
Grace and horror are convolutions of a single force, |
2 |
AS IT IS |
"Soap 2020" |
single |
directions of ardor applied to a scaffolding of weakness we lash around ourselves |
3 |
Wicca Phase Springs Eternal |
"Obsessed" |
This Moment I Miss 5 |
in the wishful misapprehension that any important problems can be isolated to exteriors. |
4 |
Disillusion |
"Between" |
single |
Nothing that happens here belongs to us alone. |
5 |
Softheart |
"Stay by Me" |
single |
Your heart knows what it needs in an instant, |
6 |
Fenrir's Scar |
"Curse of Mankind" |
single |
and waits to tell you until it thinks you are prepared. |
7 |
Pain of Salvation |
"RESTLESS BOY" |
single |
It's always wrong. |
8 |
Dwell in Doom |
"Immortal Beast" |
single |
Love is our name for all the externalities we perceive as imposed upon us from within. |
9 |
Manticora |
"The Farmer's Tale, Pt. 3 - Eaten by the Beasts" |
single |
I did not exactly choose these songs, or the way guitars change my breath. |
10 |
Imperial Triumphant |
"Alphaville" |
Alphaville (Bonus Tracks Edition) |
I did not plan to remember this miserable year by three albums of chaos organized obliquely into implicit taxonomies of exemption, |
11 |
Ethicist |
"Foreign Lines" |
Songbird |
nor to yearn for exemption in the first place, |
12 |
Black Magnet |
"Punishment Map" |
single |
nor for this year to last 20,000 identical days |
13 |
Drouth |
"O Time Thy Pyramids - An Unfinished Nightmare" |
Excerpts from a Dread Liturgy |
and still be no closer to resolution. |
14 |
Batushka |
"IRMOS IV / ИРМОС IV" |
single |
We rarely plan our purgatories. |
15 |
The Infernal Sea |
"Befallen Order" |
single |
We have exultory tracts declaring us chosen for reward |
16 |
7xvn |
"All Hail the Birth of Thy King" |
S.P.I.T. 5 |
and nearly-identical polemics threatening retributive torment, |
17 |
ONI INC. |
"FUCK RACISM" |
single |
bound into binary and almost entirely hypothetical cosmologies, |
18 |
ghostofblu |
"BACKBONE" |
BACKBONE +1 |
and then we wonder why everything in between seems maddeningly ambiguous. |
19 |
Lil Darkie |
"AMV" |
single |
It's easier to mythologize than remember, |
20 |
SuiSai |
"sting of honesty" |
single |
and easier to dream of blue truth-telling turtles |
21 |
Travis Barker |
"Forever" |
Forever +3 |
than to take responsibility for the chemical spill that dyed them. |
22 |
Tenille Arts |
"TERRITORY" |
single |
We collect the material for outrage in our ships, |
23 |
Neoni |
"Bloodstream" |
single |
and then abandon them in other people's harbors. |
24 |
Arca |
"Knot" |
single |
The buildings you walk past evaluate the cadence of your movements, |
25 |
Tricky |
"Thinking Of" |
single |
contemplating the possible motivations for explosion. |
26 |
Poppy |
"Khaos x4" |
single |
Chaos and order are temporal widths. |
27 |
Konomi Suzuki |
"THEATER OF LIFE" |
OPENING THEME SONG FROM TV SERIES”DECAーDENCE” 4 |
It's also easier to mythologize than to anticipate, |
28 |
Hachi |
"Hikari no Mukoue" |
single |
easier to think of night and day as distinctions at war, |
29 |
ヨルシカ |
"昼鳶" |
盗作 |
easier to tense yourself for a fight than to take a breath big enough to share, |
30 |
tricot |
"おまえ" |
single |
easier to orbit idols than to call them and acknowledge your role in their fate. |
31 |
BRATS |
"棘" |
single |
I am sitting in my living room in the dark, |
32 |
Envoi |
"Wonders" |
single |
and you are singing about what it feels like to decide to hold onto something that is actually a part of you. |
33 |
The Haunt |
"Brag About" |
single |
You are escaping from an orphange, |
34 |
Season of Ghosts |
"A Place to Call Home (Radio Edit)" |
single |
or stealing a bright blue car, |
35 |
Adamantia |
"Caminar Sobre el Viento" |
single |
and I pick up a glass that was empty of ice coffee the previous two times I picked it up, too, |
36 |
Era for a Moment |
"So Long" |
single |
and put it down and turn the page. |
37 |
Oceans of Slumber |
"The Colors of Grace" |
single |
We take turns constructing elaborate distractions for each other, |
38 |
Null Positiv |
"Phantomschmerz" |
Independenz |
and then tearing them apart in reductive fury, |
39 |
Triángulo de Amor Bizarro |
"Vixiantes Do Espello" |
single |
and then standing in the debris and wondering how any combination of wreckage and triumph is supposed to be assembled into a home. |
40 |
Joven Dolores |
"Islados" |
single |
I am landing with an embassy of dragons, |
41 |
Molay |
"Ikot" |
single |
and you are looking out of your window and reaching for a mask. |
42 |
Bastille |
"WHAT YOU GONNA DO???" |
single |
We have been left to our own devices, and many days just fall away, |
43 |
Volunteer |
"Found You in the Fire" |
single |
but sometimes we catch one. |
44 |
SawanoHiroyuki[nZk]:Jean-Ken Johnny |
"Chaos Drifters" |
Chaos Drifters / CRY 5 |
Today you hear a song, |
45 |
The River |
"Indonesiaku" |
single |
or 80 songs, |
46 |
The Go-Go's |
"Club Zero" |
single |
and some of them are about resilience |
47 |
Ella Vos |
"Dreaming, backwards" |
Turbulence |
and some about fragility, |
48 |
Laleh |
"Vatten" |
Vatten +2 |
and these are different ways of telling the same story. |
49 |
Melanie C |
"In and Out of Love" |
In And Out Of Love 3 |
You can want a future that doesn't require coming to terms with our past, |
50 |
ØPAL |
"Iced Coffee" |
single |
like you can want an entirely empty glass to be half full again, |
51 |
BAER |
"Playboi" |
single |
like you can want to hit shift at exactly the right time to be sucked into the screen, |
52 |
Sophia Loizou |
"Anima" |
single |
but you only dream that way because you have not been circuits yet. |
53 |
Abyss X |
"Love Altercation" |
INNUENDO |
The circuits smile, not because they know what karma awaits you, |
54 |
blackwinterwells |
"give loop" |
single |
but because it will be fun to show you around when you arrive. |
55 |
MIMIDEATH |
"okway" |
FOAR EVERYWUN FRUM MIMI |
Zero and one are different ways to say maybe |
56 |
SyKo |
"Favela" |
single |
with confidence. |
57 |
Tonser |
"Eye for eye" |
single |
I am deleting email |
58 |
Luvox |
"For a Rainy Day" |
single |
offering me discounts on things I don't need from stores where I don't live, |
59 |
Anna von Hausswolff |
"Sacro Bosco" |
single |
and you are looking at a blank sequencer and thinking about the shapes of notes that aren't there yet. |
60 |
Siamese Youth |
"Take on Me Too" |
single |
These are both self-preservational practices, bailing and waiting, |
61 |
Drive!Drive! |
"Like You" |
single |
in a Calvinist version of art where the work lurks ahead of us in the dark. |
62 |
FigureItOut |
"Far Beyond" |
single |
We pass in intersecting headlong flights from birth, |
63 |
Touché Amoré |
"Limelight" |
single |
strangers and long-awaited friends alike not kissing, |
64 |
Black Veil Brides |
"We Stitch These Wounds" |
Re-Stitch These Wounds |
waiting to be allowed to kiss again, |
65 |
The Psychedelic Furs |
"Wrong Train" |
Made of Rain |
waiting for our own mistakes to again take precedence over ambient terror, |
66 |
Corazón |
"Dímelo" |
El Principio del Camino 6 |
waiting for our hearts to be stronger |
67 |
Leander Kills |
"Gyere bánat" |
single |
as if that's how hearts work. |
68 |
Penny Penny |
"Ibola Aids" |
single |
But blood and air are symbiont states of the same morally neutral substrate. |
69 |
Mpumi Mzobe |
"Ngibambe" |
Nompumelelo |
We do not win by breathing, but by breathing with purpose. |
70 |
Aubrey Qwana |
"Phimbo Lami" |
Imvula Mlomo |
You exhale a sound. |
71 |
The 2 Johnnies |
"Dancing In My Kitchen" |
single |
My heart beats. |
72 |
Black Marble |
"Johnny and Mary" |
single |
This is how it starts. This is how it started. |
73 |
Hinds |
"Spanish Bombs" |
single |
Nothing that happens between us belongs only to us, |
74 |
First to Eleven |
"Fade to Black" |
single |
which is why nothing that happens between us matters only to us, |
75 |
Vivienne Chi |
"Dreams" |
single |
but if we listen carefully to our loneliness, in these days filled with it, |
76 |
MIMIDEATH |
"fastcar" |
FOAR EVERYWUN FRUM MIMI |
maybe we will hear who we can become. |