1 |
Ed Sheeran |
"Magical - Live from Brantlie’s Living Room" |
Autumn Variations |
There are definitely weeks when I would listen in a vacuum if I could, |
2 |
Dual Alter World |
"Center Of The World" |
WORLD DISTONATION |
or whatever you call a space permeable only by human impulses that don't betray the horrific limitations of our capacities for empathy and decency, |
3 |
ChouCho |
"Never Say Goodbye" |
Never Say Goodbye +3 |
and this is one of those, but I can't, |
4 |
yanaginagi |
"豆粒タイムライン" |
命火 6 |
and so I'm left to assume that I wouldn't be standing at a sleekly generic adjustable desk |
5 |
Pimm's |
"Never let you go" |
single |
in the mostly-empty and relentlessly efficient office where I work, |
6 |
RAISE A SUILEN |
"TWIN TALE" |
single |
crying helplessly at videos of an eternally scruffy Ed Sheeran standing at the doors of random unsuspecting fans, |
7 |
PRSMIN |
"Skyline" |
single |
knocking on them with the hand not carrying a guitar, |
8 |
GARNiDELiA |
"Future Wing" |
single |
and then walking into their disbelief to sit on their couch with them and play them a song |
9 |
ZAQ |
"Guitar, Loneliness and Blue Planet - From CrosSing" |
Guitar, Loneliness and Blue Planet - From CrosSing +1 |
while they hold a dog or their breath or time, |
10 |
CHiCO |
"エース" |
single |
if I weren't switching back and forth between this tiny spectacle of desperate joy |
11 |
Risky Melody |
"Risky Melody" |
Reflection |
and the news coverage of toxic hatred packed into metal cylinders |
12 |
PaleNeØ |
"Schizoid" |
Schizoid +2 |
and fired back and forth across invented and hopelessly inconclusive borders |
13 |
MAD JAMIE |
"FXXK YOU VERY MUCH" |
FXXK YOU VERY MUCH +1 |
dug into uncomprehending dirt by centuries of unapologetically incompatible belief. |
14 |
Blood Stain Child |
"2045" |
2045 +1 |
My feelings for Ed range from ambient tolerance to sporadic enthusiasm, |
15 |
Rave The Reqviem |
"Zero Solace" |
EX-EDEN |
mostly circling in on admiration that he has gotten almost as famous as you can get for having written songs |
16 |
Rave The Reqviem |
"Exit Babylon" |
EX-EDEN |
without seeming to have become any less interested in writing more of them. |
17 |
RAVDINA |
"Измеряя шагами небо" |
single |
They're usually not complicated, but they're reliably decent, |
18 |
Metalite |
"New Generation" |
New Generation 5 |
both of which are the opposite of the prisals and reprisals bloodily yet again being exchanged between intransigencies |
19 |
Alterium |
"Bismarck" |
Bismarck +1 |
in a small corner of our beautiful planet we've discovered to have the perfect climate |
20 |
We Are the Catalyst |
"Daydreamers" |
Daydreamers +1 |
for the cultivation of invasive grudges. |
21 |
ADHARMA |
"Porcelain" |
single |
Ed has a new album, which is unpretentious and objectively fine on its own, I think, |
22 |
DARLAH |
"Trials" |
Trials +3 |
modernly produced but not post-modernly beaten lifeless, |
23 |
Elegy Of Madness |
"Hybrid Love" |
single |
but the second notional "disc" of the extra-double-bonus version |
24 |
Night Crowned |
"Flickan Som Försvann" |
Flickan Som Försvann +1 |
has living room versions of all 14 songs, one gifted to each of 14 fans, |
25 |
Cirith Ungol |
"Looking Glass" |
single |
and just listening to them I'm OK, functioning, not crying, |
26 |
Eldritch |
"Elegy Of Lust" |
single |
not hating human weakness unmanageably as I play them and debug complaints about the new Fans Also Like algorithm |
27 |
Myrath |
"Heroes" |
single |
that almost always turn out to stem from emotional indignance that faking your fans |
28 |
Nik Nocturnal |
"Tsunderella" |
single |
casts you into an unflattering association with other fakers exactly no worse than you. |
29 |
TEMIC |
"Mothallah" |
Mothallah +2 |
People will make music, one of the few things that deserves to be treated as holy, |
30 |
Imperialist |
"CALL OF THE VULCAIN" |
single |
and then fuck it up with greed and impatient jealousy, |
31 |
Misertus |
"only just unfolding" |
single |
so of course we also fuck up nationhood and coexistence and hopeless imbalances of power, |
32 |
Heretoir |
"Glacierheart - Nightsphere Part II" |
Nightsphere |
all of which are inherently mired in logistics and sediment from which a chorus cannot lift you out. |
33 |
Sühnopfer |
"Nous Sommes d'Hier" |
Nous sommes d'Hier |
Ed's songs are fine. Part of the reason this series of fan visitations works, |
34 |
Svalbard |
"Defiance" |
The Weight Of The Mask |
even though Ed is playing them new songs instead of the ones for which they became his fans, |
35 |
Dominic Gebhardt |
"Whispers Of Eldrathia" |
Whispers Of Eldrathia +2 |
is that all of his songs have the same basic qualities. |
36 |
Nocturnal Abbey |
"Funerals empty chairs" |
The great blackened swan |
You can find reasons to choose between them, |
37 |
Myrkur |
"Valkyriernes Sang" |
Valkyriernes Sang +2 |
but that will mostly be about you. Ed seems to very earnestly love them all. |
38 |
TORRES |
"Collect" |
single |
They do not turn on individual ingenuities, |
39 |
KANGA |
"Last Drive" |
Under Glass |
or compressions of yearning or identity the way Taylor's do, |
40 |
HEALTH |
"CHILDREN OF SORROW" |
CHILDREN OF SORROW +2 |
nor do they try to drop you into somebody else's obsessions or reconciliations the way Mountain Goats songs do, |
41 |
House of Harm |
"Roseglass" |
single |
but he's sitting there in people's living rooms, |
42 |
rouri404 |
"spit" |
single |
one better than a boombox |
43 |
Hannah Diamond |
"Want You To Know" |
Perfect Picture |
or bringing a team with him to reproduce "Ed's Version" of songs that were Ed's versions in any case, |
44 |
Letting Up Despite Great Faults |
"Cherry Splits" |
single |
just playing and singing them. |
45 |
Turmalina |
"A Sagrado" |
single |
It's only the videos, only really the beginnings of the videos, that tear me open: |
46 |
Ashbury Heights |
"Ghosts Electric" |
single |
people sitting on their couches, waiting for a listening session or whatever it is they've been told is going to happen |
47 |
Dwell in Doom |
"Ghost Child" |
Gothic Mass |
to explain why they're on camera; |
48 |
Anders Manga |
"Phantom" |
single |
Ed walking up the sidewalk, because somehow all of these winners live in apartments whose doors require awkward approaches; |
49 |
Haunter |
"UNTOUCHABLE" |
single |
the moment they see him, his sheepish hugs; |
50 |
Messer |
"Halfway" |
single |
the heroic simulation of calm as he starts to play. |
51 |
Page |
"Det här är mitt sätt" |
En ny våg |
This is the task we are given, are assigned by virtue of birth: |
52 |
Jetstream Pony |
"Sixes and Sevens" |
Sixes and Sevens / Into the Sea 2 |
to remain human in all our contexts. |
53 |
Namasenda |
"rosa" |
Ambrosia 4 |
Ed and Brantlie and John demonstrate this admirably, |
54 |
Tkay Maidza |
"Out of Luck" |
Out of Luck +3 |
in situations where little is ultimately at stake, but failure remains an enticing option. |
55 |
Hannah Diamond |
"Twisted" |
Perfect Picture |
This is what moved me intensely as I walked between Quarters in the Old City, |
56 |
Dorian Electra |
"Symphony" |
Fanfare |
always in the shadow of enmities I knew about in the abstract |
57 |
PUTOCHINOMARICÓN |
"soy un idiota" |
single |
but could not viscerally impose on the streets or shops or food or people. |
58 |
TeZATalks |
"STOPIT!!" |
STOPIT!! +3 |
The soldier guarding the approach to the Mount began on a series of probing questions about my origin and intentions, |
59 |
Emma Blackery |
"Everybody Lies" |
Cannot Help Myself 5 |
but after he asked about my religion and I said I had none, the remainder of the interrogation was abandoned. |
60 |
LØLØ |
"faceplant" |
faceplant +2 |
He understood, as a practical matter of doing his job if not a theoretical matter of explaining how that came to be a job anybody felt needed doing, |
61 |
Anna Vaus |
"Probably Shouldn't" |
single |
that profound existential disagreement is something you only enter into by voluntary irrational belief. |
62 |
Lizzie No |
"Lagunita" |
single |
Only by invoking invisible external forces can we fool ourselves into placing derivational mortal allegiances in opposition. |
63 |
Joy Clark |
"Guest" |
single |
You can't look through a containment fence at another human |
64 |
Hafdís Huld |
"Darkest Night" |
single |
without pretending the fence is a projection |
65 |
Son Lux |
"Lanterns Lit (Among The Living)" |
single |
of a superior boundary from a higher dimension. |
66 |
Timeka Marshall |
"A+" |
single |
It's possible to do this without explicit recourse to religion, |
67 |
LONGMAN |
"Festa" |
10/4 |
as the continuing and undiminishedly inhumane Russian war on Ukraine abjectly reminds us, |
68 |
浦小雪 |
"青と青" |
single |
but the ideological justifications there are plainly disingenuous and completely unconvincing in any rational evaluation. |
69 |
BACK LIFT |
"Breath" |
single |
The blame for that war may be straightforwardly assigned, and the proper resolution is hard to reach but easy to see. |
70 |
Nulbarich |
"Skyline" |
single |
Nothing about the situation in the narrow moral crucible between the sea of refugees and the sea of salt |
71 |
Mr.FanTastiC |
"Sweet sweet candy time" |
single |
is straightforward or obviously solvable without somebody, or everybody, |
72 |
Good Grief |
"July" |
SAD STATION |
letting go of beliefs to which they feel divinely entitled. |
73 |
THE BACK HORN |
"saigoni nokorumono" |
saigoni nokorumono +1 |
There is no way to accept rockets fired at homes as a moral act, |
74 |
kanon |
"Mermaid" |
single |
but there is also no way to accept the current map of occupations and segregations |
75 |
MCDVLR |
"Wasted Days" |
single |
as a serious proposal for a rocketless future. |
76 |
Siloé |
"Si Me Necesitas, Llámame" |
single |
It's tempting to blame Lord Balfour, and rarely too wrong to trace current conflicts |
77 |
Tommaso Paradiso |
"Via" |
Sensazione Stupenda |
back to centuries of imperialism, |
78 |
Tommi Läntinen |
"Elämän tarkoitus" |
Maailma kääntyy kohti valoa |
but once you pass the religion rapid-test and are thus allowed to walk up the enclosed stairs that rise above the Western Wall, |
79 |
Broken Records |
"Is There Still Light?" |
The Dreamless Sleep Of The 1990s |
you find yourself standing amongst busloads of evangelical Christian tour-groups |
80 |
Gillian Baci |
"call me crazy" |
single |
in front of the third-most-holy mosque in Islam, |
81 |
True Love Mjoli |
"Inkobongela" |
Emataxini |
which sits exactly where the third and final Temple is zoned to go in Judaism, |
82 |
Ithwasa Lekhansela |
"Kuyahlonishwa" |
Impi |
and this knot of spiritual fibers is not going to be untied by its current tighteners, |
83 |
Unogwaja Omhlophe |
"Ngadlani Kabani?" |
Inyoka Isebhantshini |
nor sliced liberatingly open by oblivious tourists like me |
84 |
Maqhinga Hadebe |
"Ugcina Icala" |
iSoft Life |
Station-spotting as if Greenaway also had a Carrying a Cross to Your Death By Numbers, |
85 |
Ama Double SS |
"Awekho" |
Ibhola Lokujima |
and genuinely not knowing whether the next street is going to be full of baklava or manti. |
86 |
INKAZIMULO YABANGCWELE INDUMEZULU GOSPEL GROUP |
"Sohlangana khona" |
single |
The fourth Quarter was the destination of the first Armenian diaspora, |
87 |
Hitler SA Massive Production |
"Athandweni Trumpet" |
single |
the latest of which, from Nagorno-Karabakh, was not even a month ago. |
88 |
Ntozabantu |
"Ngondisize" |
single |
We are displaced by intolerance, but there's never very far to go. |
89 |
DJ Charme |
"Awe" |
Hartenjagen |
The walls we build around cornered cities are painted on the inward-facing side with ineffective accusation, |
90 |
Brandon Lake |
"TEAR OFF THE ROOF" |
TEAR OFF THE ROOF +3 |
on the outward-facing side with unacknowledgeable myopia: |
91 |
Matthew West |
"You Changed My Name" |
single |
bright colors we'll appreciate once the slabs of it are taken down |
92 |
Amy Grant |
"Love Of Another Kind - Live" |
Lead Me On Live 1989 |
and shipped off to scattered museums and business schools for retrospectively rueful display. |
93 |
Dea Norberg |
"Stay yourself" |
single |
They left the wall around the Old City up, and now it's a sightseeing path. |
94 |
James Arthur |
"Just Us" |
single |
The day we were going to climb Masada, the year's one day of rain washed out the road south, |
95 |
Rachel Nusbaumer |
"Beyond Fragility" |
single |
stranding a busload of Ukrainian tourists by the Dead Sea a couple years before that would have seemed ironic. |
96 |
Eolya |
"Nausikaa" |
Fundr |
Those people opening their doors weren't expecting to be hugged by Ed Sheeran with a guitar, |
97 |
Earlyguard |
"Zeitschleife" |
MMXXIII |
but they also weren't expecting to be shot by invaders. |
98 |
Ed Sheeran |
"Midnight - Live from John’s Living Room" |
Autumn Variations |
A tiny moment of surprising kindness doesn't make you cry, |
99 |
Superchunk |
"In Between Days" |
In Between Days +2 |
it gives accumulated directionless grief somewhere to go next. |
100 |
Social Repose |
"Wrecking Ball" |
single |
Diaspora is a name for flight, if you look backwards toward your home, |
101 |
Page |
"High as I" |
En ny våg |
but when we leave our homes, we bring new love to somewhere else |
102 |
Hannah Diamond |
"Divisible By Two" |
Perfect Picture |
for as long as it takes until there's enough of it everywhere. |