| 1 | BAND-MAID | "start over" | start over +1 | Start over. There was no music before, or there was but it only lasts a week. |
| 2 | MUCC | "生と死と君" | 時限爆弾 4 | For the moment, at least, it feels like the older I get, the more exclusively I use the past as a vector into the future. |
| 3 | Day6 | "Stop The Rain" | Stop The Rain +3 | I remember less. Or probably I remember more in some absolute sense, but it feels like I remember less. |
| 4 | GARNiDELiA | "avra K'Davarah" | single | Or maybe it feels less like my internal development consists of incrementally building a specific current state, |
| 5 | TOTALFAT | "Seeds of Awakening" | single | a describable self, a personality as a collection. |
| 6 | AAA | "DEJAVU" | single | I think I did once understand myself, in each today, as what I was yesterday plus one meticulously chosen new adaptation or power, |
| 7 | THE SxPLAY | "スウィートアウトサイダー" | single | and thus as a completist collector of future selves as well as past ones. |
| 8 | UVERworld | "Odd Future" | single | Back before portable computers, but after lasers, I had a stack of paper I carried around, |
| 9 | SPYAIR | "I Wanna Be..." | I Wanna Be... +2 | inscribed with the smallest font the lasers could render, |
| 10 | Aimer | "Ref:rain" | single | most of it listing all the records I had, but the last page listing the ones I "needed". |
| 11 | Boku no Lyric no Boyomi | "輪廻転生" | single | I lived, in a sense, in perpetual fear of missing something, |
| 12 | Hitsujibungaku | "ドラマ" | 若者たちへ | which is to say emotionally defined by my ability not to. |
| 13 | SHE'S | "Upside Down" | single | On Tuesdays (and oh, my children, there was a time when new music came out on Tuesdays) |
| 14 | Yoshiki | "Red Swan - TV Edit -" | single | I took my scrolls of the aspirationally finite future with me to the record store, |
| 15 | Sangatsu no Phantasia | "Kaze No Koewo Kikinagara" | single | as much to hear new music as to confirm the comprehensiveness of my anticipation of it. |
| 16 | Ghost like girlfriend | "髪の花" | WITNESS | The new records that were on my list, but not in the bins, were disappointing, but less alarming than the ones that were in the bins but not on my list, because if I could not-know about a record I would want that was there, that meant I could not-know about other records I would want that weren't there. |
| 17 | Kavka Shishido | "全力のアイラブユー" | DOUBLE TONE 5 | And what kind of creature could tolerate a methodical incompleteness of love? |
| 18 | Merzbow | "Merzhex Part 2" | Achromatic | That was before. Start over. |
| 19 | Derdian | "DNA" | DNA | Streaming music is, of course, hardly the only structural change in my recent life. |
| 20 | Mob Rules | "Sinister Light" | single | I got married, we had a kid, I turned 50. |
| 21 | Dynazty | "Breathe with Me" | single | The planet got warmer, my part of it elected an unconscionable leader. |
| 22 | Helion Prime | "Spectrum" | single | Computers got better, and smaller and larger at once. |
| 23 | Halcyon Way | "Bloody but Unbowed" | single | Everything got more infinite. |
| 24 | MaYaN | "The Rhythm of Freedom" | single | And although it's almost always possible to initially integrate the infinite as a newer, incrementally richer (or, if you're obtuse, poorer) source of the finite, |
| 25 | Autumn | "Blackout" | single | this conflation of the qualitative and quantitative has an inherent instability. |
| 26 | Metric | "Dressed to Suppress" | single | I used to wake in place, and choose new steps. |
| 27 | Royal Teeth | "Never Gonna Quit" | single | I mean, I think that's how I used to wake, |
| 28 | Dominique | "Receipts" | single | or that's how I now think about how I think I used to wake, |
| 29 | IDLES | "Samaritans" | single | which is of course useless, because I wasn't this me then, |
| 30 | Erik Ekholm | "Desolation" | Thunder | so why should we care what I think I thought? |
| 31 | RichaadEB | "Your Contract Has Expired" | single | But circularly, I guess, I'm only this me now, |
| 32 | AmaLee | "Red Swan" | single | so what I think I thought is arguably |
| 33 | Dima Lancaster | "Red Swan" | single | the only one of the infinite versions of what I thought that there's any practical point to care about. |
| 34 | Paulo Cuevas | "La Flecha Escarlata (De "Shingeki No Kyojin")" | single | I used to wake in pace, and choose new steps. |
| 35 | Pale Waves | "Eighteen" | single | Now I wake in motion, |
| 36 | Oh, Weatherly | "Chasing California" | Lips Like Oxygen | in all the directions I was moving before, or some of them, |
| 37 | Brigades | "Buffy" | True Blue 6 | and at best try to make choices about how and where to accelerate, |
| 38 | From First To Last | "Surrender" | single | such that the inertiae of my movements tend to be progressions into increasingly abundant joy, |
| 39 | First to Eleven | "Thrill" | single | which, yes, is always as much about your capacity to recognize and experience joy |
| 40 | Twenty One Two | "Girls Just Want to Have Fun" | single | as it is about the precision of your navigation. |
| 41 | Circuit Des Yeux | "Sœur De Race" | single | Joy is not scarce |
| 42 | Plini | "Salt + Charcoal" | Sunhead 4 | or obscure |
| 43 | Catherine McGrath | "The Edges" | Talk Of This Town | or hidden. |
| 44 | Ruthie Collins | "Finally Here" | single | I do not carry a checklist of futures. |
| 45 | Cody Jinks | "Holy Water" | Lifers | The future is not an itemization of incompletenesses, |
| 46 | 17 Memphis | "Love Out Loud" | single | nor the past. |
| 47 | Koven | "Voices" | single | Cataloguing is a means of exploration, |
| 48 | Bii | "無畏的明天-電視劇<甜蜜暴擊>片頭曲" | single | where I think I once kind of believed the opposite, |
| 49 | Valen Hsu | "芙烈亞" | single | or behaved like I did, |
| 50 | 陳粒 | "情景劇" | 玩 | chose like I did. |
| 51 | Halestorm | "Killing Ourselves To Live" | Vicious | At any rate, I used to spend a lot of time entering things into a database that nobody but me ever checked, |
| 52 | VENUES | "The Longing" | Aspire | albeit sometimes in order to say things to other people, so not technically solipsistically, |
| 53 | Aleks Syntek | "Insomnio" | single | but maybe close enough. |
| 54 | Thin Lips | "Sex Is Complicated" | Chosen Family | I used to try to manage my own memory in prose. |
| 55 | Bad Moves | "Spirit FM" | single | Now I share the world's database of music and love, |
| 56 | Fally Ipupa | "École" | single | and let computers remember my listening uncritically, |
| 57 | Irene Ntale | "Omuwano Gwekiro" | single | or at least without adding any more criticism than my listening itself implies, |
| 58 | Unzucht | "Projektil" | Akephalos (Deluxe Edition) | or not much more, |
| 59 | Erdling | "Erdling" | Dämon | and worry instead about how they extrapolate. |
| 60 | Redemption | "The Echo Chamber" | Long Night's Journey into Day | This is not an automatically better future, and can devolve easily into a closed system in which you only ever find out about things you already mostly know. |
| 61 | Michael Romeo | "Differences" | War Of The Worlds, Pt. 1 | So one simple formulation of what I do at work is try to turn the world's collective ever-expanding listening into an energy that makes every individual's listening also expand. |
| 62 | Sertab Erener | "Bastırın Kızlar" | single | Which is hard to measure in any absolute sense, but my younger database-self-sufficient self definitely didn't know anything about Turkish music. |
| 63 | Ekin Beril | "Zaman" | Zaman +3 | Each new thing you learn can lead to more things, if you let it. |
| 64 | Rico Nasty | "Big Dick Energy" | single | Discovery is erratic, |
| 65 | UPPERROOM | "The Joy of Surrender + the Stand" | Moments II | and sometimes the most productive tensions are oppositional. |
| 66 | Building 429 | "Shame Doesn't Live Here" | single | Believe impossible things before breakfast, but after coffee, |
| 67 | Andrew Ripp | "Wildfire" | single | or while you're still asleep, |
| 68 | London Gatch | "You Never Walk Away" | single | or while everybody else is. |
| 69 | Jason Mraz | "More Than Friends (feat. Meghan Trainor)" | More Than Friends (feat. Meghan Trainor) +1 | The truth can be obvious and plaintive, |
| 70 | Bedouin Soundclash | "They Gutted This City" | single | or oblique and plaintive, |
| 71 | morgan willis | "Brand New" | Stay the Night | or omnibenevolent and plaintive, |
| 72 | Big Ass | "ตลอดไป...มีจริง" | single | or plaintive and you don't have any idea what else. |
| 73 | Stamp | "ภูเขาบังเส้นผม feat. TWOPEE" | single | No amount of fierce attention to your individual steps will let you walk from Boston to Bangkok |
| 74 | Fresno | "Convicção" | single | to Porto Alegre. |
| 75 | Nikola Rokvic | "Pao Sam" | single | Will you stand where you happened to fall? |
| 76 | Rave The Reqviem | "Skydweller" | single | We begin as earthdwellers, |
| 77 | Oddnesse | "It Runs Wild" | single | and then learn all the ways in which that is only nominally true, |
| 78 | Helena Deland | "Claudion" | single | all the rules that "apply" the way sunlight lands, |
| 79 | Rise Against | "The Violence - Ghost Note Symphonies" | The Ghost Note Symphonies, Vol.1 | everything that becomes more whole when you take it apart |
| 80 | Karen Zoid | "Kana Uchema / Linger" | Republiek van Zoid Afrika, Vol. 5 | and make it again, |
| 81 | Karen Zoid | "Great Heart" | Republiek van Zoid Afrika, Vol. 5 | and then watch as somebody else makes it like it was always theirs. |
| 82 | Corvus Corax | "Skál" | Skál | You always have the right to start over, |
| 83 | Houndmouth | "Golden Age" | single | now that you're older and newer, |
| 84 | Kristin Hersh | "No Shade In Shadow" | Possible Dust Clouds | now that you're still alive. |